After starting to do some self-esteem work, I realized how much wanting to change a natural part of me was a unnecessary burden I didn't have to bear.
Sometimes, when I'm home alone I dance around. I sing and I whip my hair. I do. It makes me feel good and taps deep into an inner part of me where I can go that allows me to be myself and not shrink away when all I want to do is to be invisible to the world. There is something about knowing the walls can't judge me and that I'm just being who I am, how I want to be. That is liberating.